Friday, September 14, 2012

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Monday, June 4, 2012


feeling like I am wasting 90% of my potential. not because I think I'm better than others that may be doing the same things I am, I just feel a desire for more. or very willing to be exerted to a greater degree. for something worth it.

I've not developed my art.
or music.
or knowledge of science.
and spiritually, I think I am just as complacent.

I need a zest. a fire. a burn. an itch. instead, I feel a twinge of what ifs and loss.

wasted time.

and becoming mediocre in order to keep peace.

oh it's hard, to do well, and squash out competitive/self esteem issues from childhood.